today is arsehole's birthday.
who? my father. the one and only BEAST.

i mean how sheethead can he get? He scolded my mother infront of everybody, even his parents? But because he is a spoilt brat, nobody could even say anything. thank gawd i didn t join them for lunch. i had too much revision to do and mug on. gosh, freaking STRESSIE.

We ate dinner at AMKcoffeeshop. I was quite pissed with my father. i didn t even mentioned to him a single word. I started munching on my food, and started staring at this beng whom seem to be my age but smoking. MAN. i really want to try. Just one puff. I wanna know what so big deal about these cigarettes. I think the beng caught me staring at him, i quickly turned my head away. And when i glanced back at him, i realised he was smiling at me. And then i told myself:

wait, is that a good thing or bad?

i gave a teensy weensy smile and never look to my left again.

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i headed down to COURTS. stupid zen thingy. the ear piece seem to be auto- mute. Clever piece of junk. I ask the staff [which specialise in MP3]

Me : Hi, i was wondering if you sell Creative Earpiece
Staff: Hmm, i dunno what you mean
Me : urm, the part where you connect the music from the mp3 to the zen
staff: ohhhh that .
Me: uhhhuh-
staff: wait let me check it out.

-waits-


staff hands me a weird box.

me: this is a headphone?
staff: yup!
me: i want a earpiece.
staff: go cashier , down there got.
me: wtffffffff. [[ of course i was thinking that to myself ]]
staff: you go straight down
me: i been here BEFORE.

gosh.
EARPIECE.
I WANT EARPIECE.

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anyways i don t think i will do so well for english. I was practically shivering . i couldn write finish. i coudln t tie the damn knot. teacher irritated. and alllll i could do was gave her the HEHE look.

tomorrow is english exam.
wish me luck (:
i mean it .
really.
ALOT OF LUCK ):
but save some for my chinese paper ;D

i dunno whether should i feel like angry although i know it is pretty useless. i kept my phone on silent and i didn t know her mother keep calling me and her sister kinda scolded me, telling me i am deaf and i should go see a docter. Hello, how was i suppose to know. I know i used to cause a big trouble last time but now i stop, i did it out of foolishness. I tried my best to help her at all cost, and now you saying this to me. Isn t my efforts not known? argh FORGET IT.

i didn t run today. english remedial end late today.
i am not really in the mood too.

deb, forget this matter.
just let her rattle.
because you always got me,
and although i am always the one that lead,
don t worry, because i am there,
right there for you. (:

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they said we are meant together
i even thought about it.
but how?
though i love you so much,
and really wanna see you,
can we really get together?

a nice poem
meant for NONE OF YOU GUYS OUT THERE, GIRLS ALSO. (:<

lalala,
only i know is for who.

seriously if it think it is you :l
i think you better think again.
yeah i was angry with you because
my means of communication was gone.
fine. if you think i eff up your life,
then i am sorry.

go ahead and tell everyone
i made your life miserable.

when actually i was refering to
S-T-R-E-S-S



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i had my maths paper 1 (fake) today. i think i seriously need to buck up. I somehow can t get my A1 or 2 anymore. Because nerds are invading my stardom planet :( LALALAS. look out! they are burning and destroying my planet with their fcking wisedom. SCREAM. RUN. while i sit here and think of ways to kill >;]

i wanna have a run tomorrow .
come on miss fat belly.
it is time for you to get hungry
and lovely shaped (:

stop it . leave me alone.
stop doing this to me.
you are freaking me out
why don t you understand?

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LALALALAs.
i cut my hair and eunice say i look like nemo ): What is that supposed to mean? Nevermind, in my heart, Nemo is cute and chubby (: like my FAT FACE ):

To do list:

• study.
• revise.
• train
• have more confident in myself D;

the first 2 points seem so impossible D; i am getting too distracted. HMMMM.

YAY, she can join me in running , and together we will win medals (:

WOOT.

leave me alone.
if you want me to be happy,
move on, don t get stuck
because of me.
don t because of me,
you are doing this to yourself.

--

eustance,
you tell me
that i am always doing solo, i am never passing the ball, i am trying to act real big. And you disgusting creep, you actually plan one day before floorball training to scold me. How arsehole can you get. Do you know you are reflecting yourself in the mirror except your just putting my face there. let me tell you once again, i don t lick people's boot. And this is not being stubborn, you just hate it when people don t want to listen to your 'ALWAYS RIGHT' orders. I seriously want to know what girls see in you.

i am just so frustrated.
just so dam frustrated.

why don t you guys understand. all i really want is to get to our targets for this year, but are we really doing it? proving you wrong is one thing, getting together as a team is another...

touch my heart, feel it beat.
can you hear it?
she whispering :
"you hurt me too much,
now its time for us to let go.
your love that have once stayed here,
has now moved on, lost."

believe it.

floorball sarks when there are so many bitches and bastards around
but i am not giving up, i can t believe the coach just end it with us without
letting us have a say for ourselves, and you call yourself a FAIR COACH.
why don t you understand?
we are not bootlicker people.
we don t kiss your shoes and make it shiny.
you think we don t want to come for training?
you think we didn t miss our training?
but what can we do when it is STRICTLY
C girls training
C boys training
B boys training?

you say the B birls never come for floorball?
can t you see yunxian, gloria, yvonnne, peipei and me?
and you say B girls not coming for FLOORBALL.
are you FISHING blind?

yeah i curse and swear.
but how can i not ?
you threaten us to find more girls when this is all we got?
what the point of adding other girls when it is just as
good as DON T PUT ANY AT ALL.

Be in my shoes, try and stay calm?
yeah you try it?
don t play floorball for a month
GO ON.

don t put us in the school team?
after playing for 3 years?
and during the first month of this year, we actually aimed to win
and now you come and say
OH NO HOPE.

i don t believe you did this.
no hope?
tell me that
FACE TO FACE.

Take a flower that has odd number of petals. Start plucking out any one of the petal and say I MISS HER and then pluck another petal and say I MISS HER NOT. Pluck until you have no more petals left.

And the answer is

YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MISS ME (=

why haven i been blogging? i do not know. all i know that the days i didn t blog, meant so much to me. Is there such thing as emotional in a happy way? Guess what, i am 15 reaching on 16. On April 3rd, Wednesday, it was the first time i went out, out at night (= . Pathetic, YES. But i don t care. I don t care what people think about me anymore. I just want to live my life the way it is. Gloria, Lejoy, Peipei,Yvonne and ME. (according to alphabetical order) don t scold me )= , went to pasar malam. Actually we were supposed to go and watched the floorball, Mr Wee's club and our B boys but UNFORTUNATELY, we had no consent form and we had to be SHOOED OFF. this is really what you called hao xin mei hao bao lorh )= NEVERMIND, i enjoyed myself at the pasar malam.

" JINGYUN, I AM GOING TO KILL YOU " that what yvonne said when we sat on the viking ship. Apparently yvonne never sat on the viking ship before, so yeah. OMG, yvonne's mouth is a perfect 'O' so funny. Then the best part was everybody was screaming and i was plainly laughing my arse off. i dunno. I was super super high! And then we took the crazy surf and peipei almost fainted and i laughed again. SO HIGH RIGHT (((((=

THEN ON APR 02, HAPPY 23th BIRTHDAY KORKOR (=
-MUAHS- I <333333 youuuuuuuuu.

THEN ON APR o4 , SHE BACK SHE BACK SHE BACK!!

Then today the giant arowana 's cave flood again.
Then the slaves like my mother and I.
Clean the farking floor like crazy and all the
king could do was stand there, watch us and then
watched the farking tv while we scrub.

LOLLLL. this is the first time i watched campus superstar. then i realise huang zhiyang looked like ZHONG SHENG. DAMN GAO SIAO! everytime zhiyang laughed, i will laughed with him. CUTE LARHS. and i prefer geradine than terasa )= HMPH.

today is a sunday.
sunday sarks.
i hate sunday
and monday
and tuesday. (=